The World's Top Model...Esther...

After reading various views on Esther's role in the Bible...I have decided that she is my new role model...
Esther had character, class & clothes...her greatest asset being her Obedience...
God blesses us with the desires of our heart when it is in his will...Esther trusted God and waited on his direction in her life.
Esther also took the time to prepare herself for her King...I am working on preparing myself inside and outside so that I can be presented as the "best" package that I can be...
In this time of waiting to see what God is going to do for myself and his perfect choice for me, I will continue to prepare...
Oh, to be like Esther...

Reality Check!

I found this poem on the internet...it was timely!!!!!


Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone
To have a deep soul relationship with another
To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively
But God to the Christian says, No…
Not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and contented with being loved
By Me alone, with giving yourself totally unreserved to Me
Discovering that only Me is your satisfaction to be found
Then you will be capable of the perfect human relationship
That I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me
Exclusive of anyone or anything else
Exclusive of any desires and longing
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing
One that you cannot imagine
I want you to have the best, please allow Me to give it to you
Just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you
You just wait…that’s all!

Don’t be anxious, don’t worry
Don’t look around at the things other have gotten or I have given them
Don’t look at the things you think you have
You just keep looking off and away up to Me…
Or you’ll miss what I want to show you…

And then, when you are ready, I’ll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than any of you dream of
You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready
(I’m working to have you both ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepare for you
You won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies
Your relationship with Me and is thus the perfect time.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me
And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty
Perfection and love that I offer you myself
Know that I love you utterly,
Believe and be satisfied.

Day Dreaming

I find myself daydreaming about God's Perfect Choice and "our" future together...where is all of this coming from? The thought of someone really loving me back is so exciting! I look forward to the day where I don't have to hold back what I want to say for fear of being told "stop being mushy!" He is affectionate, able to express his thoughts and feelings and a million of other fun things!

Tamia's "Day Dreaming" is perfect for today...

Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Look at my mind floating away

He's the kind of guy that would say
Hey baby let's get away let's go some place, huh''
Where I don't care
He's the kind of guy that you give your everything
And trust your heart, share all of your love, till death do us part

I want to be what he wants when he wants it, and whenever he needs it
And whenever he's lonesome and love starved
I'll be there to feed it
I'm lovin' him a little bit more each day
He turns me right on when I hear him say

(Hey baby let's get away, let's go somewhere far
(Baby can we)
Where I don't care
(Hey baby let's get away, let's go somewhere far
(Baby can we)
Where I don't care

I wanna be what he wants when he wants it
And whenever he needs it
And whenever he's lonesome and loved starved I'll be there to feed it
I'm Lovin him a little bit more each day
It turns me right on when I hear him say

(Hey baby let's get away, let's go somewhere oh)
(Baby can we) Where, I don't care
(Hey baby let's get away, let's go somewhere oh)
(Baby can we) Where, I don't care
Hey baby let's get away, let's go somewhere oh
(Baby can we) Where, I don't care

I'm lovin' him a little bit more each day
Turns me right on when I hear him say

Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you (I 'm thinking of you baby)
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you
Day dreamin' and I'm thinkin' of you(thinking of you baby)

Clearing Out The Closet

We all have ghosts in our closets...or extra baggage that we have been carrying...
Well for me, I have a couple of bags...one is easier to drop off than the other...
Actually, I thought it would be easy but it is actually a little harder than I thought.

I think that some of the characteristics that may work well in most situations (loyalty), actually act against me in this situation. I also can't stand hurting people. God's Perfect Choice told me to remember that "He is not your husband," when referring to one form of my baggage. That has stuck with me and that is giving me the motivation that I need.

Prayer, prayer and more prayer is needed.